LabLogBook
Inspired by those old Logbooks written by travelers exploring the world, I want to document my experience at the BioLab as a human exploring these unknown beings that I had contact with before but never really paid attention to.
Could I do it without a colonizing gaze?
I don't want to manipulate them but to let them show me the way to discover and understand their own knowledge.
Phase 1: First thoughts
My work at the Lab started on reading the available writings there. A fortunate encounter led me to start reading "Tactical Biopolitcs" that got to translate my thoughts to words. In reference to Foucault's statement:
"Resistance comes first, and resistance remains superior to the forces of the process; power relations are obliged to change with the resistance"
My very first experiment was on trying to make the slime mold follow the route I built for it with oats. Nonetheless its resistance showed me the unpredictable aspect of nature as it started growing through a different path.
It made me think about our ambitious intentions to manipulate others lives for our own purposes and how it is the first possibility that comes to mind when we talk about experiments.
But what can slime mold teach me? Which signs does it give to me about what it wants?
Phase 2: Crisis
After a few days highly exposed to sunlight, spores started to appear on my first slime molds. The frustration gave place to amazement when Miga pointed out that it wasn't necessarily a bad thing but just the beginning of another life cycle.
Having in mind post-humanist and object oriented studies, this changing of perspective enlightened my research. I understood that what I was seeking was to question this anthropocentric way of seeing even the non-human beings.
As I talked to a friend about my aim to deal with the slime mold in a non-manipulative way, they stressed that any type of Bioart, especially if I am bringing the living matter to the lab or to my house, implies in manipulating the media I am working with. They said that better than avoiding manipulation it would be interesting to work with a symbiotic approach, understanding not just the slime mold's agency on me but also mine on it.
Phase 3: Gestation
Coming back to the very first observation when my slime mold didn't follow the oat path I built, I remembered how much I could relate it to my relation with my mother. In many aspects I feel that I didn't follow the path she wanted me to follow. I grew up following another way.
It was somehow frustrating to me, seeing my slime mold going the other way because I was so sure that the food path would be the best one to follow. It was frustrating as I couldn't understand and also we couldn't talk - we don't speak the same language.
But why did I have this caring feeling about a being that I reproduced in a lab?
I could see some colleagues talking in such a distant position about our experiments, having many ideas on how to work with them but I could only feel this curiosity to understand the relation I stablished with my "babies" (I couldn't help referring to them like this).
Could this maternal bond be my subject to study?